Stay or leave...

I've been living with my mom for the last few months (almost a year I think). Sometimes, I think it was the best thing for me to do. I got to eat mom's cooking, if Eya was sick, mom can look after her, I have my family around me, etc..Sometimes, living with a lot of people can bring stress. Its not that living with my family is stressful but sometimes you got to live on your own. I admit that its been about 10 years that I live far away from my family. Its started with my college in Kuantan then move to Bangi for my uni years.I started to live back with my mom when I was about to give birth to Eya, around September last year. Its was great back then. My siblings were great, mom was attentive and not to forget hubby who is always beside me.I didn't know what has happened but when I think that the house is going to be filled with a lot of people, you have to deal with a lot of attitudes, bad or good, annoying or not.Living with a lot of people, especially with your own family is great. You got to have meal together, go for grocery shopping together, makan-makan session together, pendek kata suma nyer sama-sama.I hate it with people talk behind people back. 'Yelah, dia tu memang kedekut';'itu pun berkira' and a lot more. If its true, yes, I admit I was wrong but before you speak, look at yourself first. Are you better than moi? You suppose to have the courage to say it direct to the other people face. Its better. If what you're saying is good maybe that person can change or vice versa.Some of you really like to said I'm 'berkira'. If I'm really the berkira type, I won't lift my finger doing job around the house, I won't pay for any meals, in fact I won't pay for anything.And living expenses should be shared. So does the chores around the house. Thats why living with your own family is better. You know what you should do, your responsibilities. Now, I'm totally sad. I have tried being the good daughter and sister but sometimes people judge you differently. In front of certain people, they become different and when they with you, they are so nice to you. I tried and had done my shares around the house. I know what is my ability and I try to do it as good as possible but sometimes people just don't appreciate you. They take things for granted. I don't want to do things that I'm not good at and in the end, being criticized by the 'good' people.And sometimes, the works that we do, people don't appreciate it but the works that people did for us, we have to remember it everyday (even though the people annoyed us big time). Now the question, are they sincere enough doing it? Disclaimer: This entry is written to channel my frustration, sadness and a little bit of anger. No hard feelings, everyone....